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Realization of Destiny
by Gita Toronjil-Lee
All is lost.
I'll be damned before I admit it, though.
How long can this façade continue?
She makes her threats, and one day she will follow through.
I know this.
I need to stop this rotten-luck streak,
but the failure keeps coming.
I will be dead soon.
If you only knew how hard I've worked!
I have nothing else but my task.
And the one thing I have I cannot succeed in.
Am I a useless person?
Am I a fool?
Do I deserve the fate that approaches me?
Am I…wrong… somehow?
I've never thought so.
I suppose being first was not a blessing.
I have never been blessed.
I am lost, I am alone, I am cursed.
The one way out for me is to win.
But I'm not blind.
I see the pattern of losses.
I'm not anticipating my victory.
All I have is to try, though,
and try my hardest
I cannot show defeat, for that would be to go down,
falling without a fight.
I have to do my best,
to do what I know I must.
I don't want to be the pathetic one.
And who knows?
Maybe I'll succeed. Maybe I'll survive.
There's always a maybe
Though I believe here chances are scarce.
More likely I'm damned,
alone and lost.
But not afraid.
I can only do what I can
with what I have.
Even if all I have is false and tenuous.
Poor, poor Jadeite. My first attempt at getting into his head, though assuredly not my last. I think he knew for a while what his fate would be... it can be read on his face at the beginning of his last episode, for sure. He knew, but he made his last shot a good one...