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Realization of Destiny

by Gita Toronjil-Lee

 



 

All is lost.

 

I'll be damned before I admit it, though.

 

How long can this façade continue?

 

She makes her threats, and one day she will follow through.

 

I know this.

 

I need to stop this rotten-luck streak,

 

but the failure keeps coming.

 

I will be dead soon.

 

If you only knew how hard I've worked!

 

I have nothing else but my task.

 

And the one thing I have I cannot succeed in.

 

Am I a useless person?

 

Am I a fool?

 

Do I deserve the fate that approaches me?

 

Am I…wrong… somehow?

 

I've never thought so.

 

Just unlucky.

 

I suppose being first was not a blessing.

 

I have never been blessed.

 

I am lost, I am alone, I am cursed.

 

The one way out for me is to win.

 

But I'm not blind.

 

I see the pattern of losses.

 

I'm not anticipating my victory.

 

All I have is to try, though,

 

and try my hardest

 

I cannot show defeat, for that would be to go down,

 

falling without a fight.

 

I have to do my best,

 

to do what I know I must.

 

I don't want to be the pathetic one. 

 

And who knows?

 

Maybe I'll succeed.  Maybe I'll survive.

 

There's always a maybe

 

Though I believe here chances are scarce.

 

More likely I'm damned,

 

alone and lost.

 

But not afraid.

 

I can only do what I can

 

with what I have.

 

Even if all I have is false and tenuous.

 

 

 

 


Poor, poor Jadeite.  My first attempt at getting into his head, though assuredly not my last.  I think he knew for a while what his fate would be... it can be read on his face at the beginning of his last episode, for sure.  He knew, but he made his last shot a good one...  

 

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